Wednesday, October 4, 2017

Is it gone?

I guess I have to let it be, no matter how much I want to keep holding on, not let go, keep all hopes...

Friday, September 29, 2017

Thursday, September 28, 2017

So Today...

I had opening and closing practice (FFA thing) at 4:30 so I had an hour to kill, so I decided to do my homework. Well, another opening team asked if I could judge them and give advice, of course I could not say no. After I gave them my input and advice, a girl from the team came up to me and asked about my Mac book and the stickers I had on it. Totally sweet girl,  I told her how each sticker had a little story and stuff, which later she asked me where I get my clothes and cute outfits. Yes, you may be thinking "Paloma why do we care?" Truth is I don't know why you would care, yet you are continuing to read this *Shrugs shoulders*. In this conversation, in this moment, it made me feel like a role model or something! Like someone actually noticed me, the little things I like and made me realize those little things I didn't even notice about myself. It was the feeling that I had importance to someone I don't even know, yea I felt cool, so what! We should all have those little moments sometime in our life time, it is nice. 

So little dude that I always see during break, I like your cal poly sweater and you remind me of a friend named Ethan Millhorn...I know thats weird but I think its the freckles and rosy cheeks! Hey girl that I always smile at walking down the hall going to 2nd while I'm speed walking, you are so gorgeous and I LOVE your outfits during spirit days, SUPER cute and you rock! Oh and Dude with the louder speaker with the terrible rap music I have never even heard of you, you go dude! You do you, and enjoy your music, warning though speakers are not aloud on campus BUT you must be really slick, still proud of you! To the dude I text 24/7, yea you know who you are doof! Thanks for making my days better at school even if its a good morning, always can find a way to put a smile on this Dory looking face! To the love of my heart and soul, thank you for keeping our streak and making me laugh at your funny snaps with the faces you always make! ok Bye.


I remember when I was younger I always wanted to sing this too someone and have that "distance romance" and learn how to play it on the ukulele. Super cute song! Sadly I would scare someone with my singing....

Monday, September 25, 2017

Saturday, September 23, 2017

Why does God put these special souls in our path?

Ephemeral but eternity...thinking about it deceased.... my fingers begin to shake, my eyes begin to bleed, my soul begins to weep. Te amo, te oigo decir. Esperando que algún día podamos estar juntos. Sé que es demasiado pronto para decirlo, pero parece que siempre te he conocido ... te quiero ... se siente como una necesidad ... quiero que nosotros trabajemos ... pero por ahora supongo que esto es una dolorosa despedida and a long hug.

I remember this one time I was looking at hashtags about god and then I started finding accounts atheists created. I will never forget how it made me feel, my stomach was turning and my eyes tearing. These accounts were just bashing on god and just saying awful things that truly hurt my heart.